Oh my, how time seems to be flying by and every moment I am trying to embrace.
We went in for our 21 week appointment at the beginning of August and knew/hoped that we would be able to find out the gender of our baby. B and I wanted to know so we could start calling the baby a he or she, figure out a name and be able to be a bit prepared with either pink/purple/yellow or blue/green things! So as we sat, with my belly smeared in jelly, my heart was beating quick, and palms a bit sweaty. The ultrasound assistant smiled and knew within seconds, as our little one was not being modest. She said it is a girl with a smile and immediately my heart sang.
I will take this moment to be honest and say we were thinking boy. After thinking over this I think my hoping for a little boy was that little boys are momma's boys and I wanted just that. A few nights before I was day dreaming of our family one day. With kids of our own and kids placed into our life through adoption. As the dream played out I remember at one point handing something to the one I knew was my oldest and it was a girl, when I came back to reality I had such a peace and this joy that filled me at the very thought. So when the ultrasound assistant said it was a girl all doubts, fears and any thought of a boy just seemed impossible. All of a sudden I knew she was a girl, and felt like I had known it the entire time (even though I did not really). I love being able to call her, just that, a her and refer to her as little miss.
With every kick and every glance I get at her pictures my heart longs to hold her, kiss her toes, and stare at her for hours. Until then I am embracing each movement and each reminder that we are so close now until December.
I just can not wait :
To show her the love of our God, His purpose for us, His passion for us and His plan for her.
To instill in her what our parents have taught us to be important.
To raise her to love others, and to be selfless.
To teach her to say thank you and please.
To teach her to share, and bless her with little gifts of adventure, exploration and creating.
To fall in love with our new family: B, me, baby and Hunter.
(Selfish reason) to become more selfless as my life because so much less about me.
To be able to fill a little life with so much love, support, and to be filled by her joy.
To do our best to create a good human being.
I just can not wait.
We are now at 27 weeks. The documenting process has been via iPhone. Here is a little peak into our last couple of weeks of baby/belly growing:
